I have 2 friends in my life. It isn't really a concious decision to have that little number of friends but I can't seem to want to even think about spending time with anyone else I know because they are all so stupid and immature.
Not that the 2 I consider friends are very mature. I give them the smart thing, but they don't use their smarts all the time; which is worse then not having any in the first place.
There is some background story on this though, see the two of them didn't use to get along. It wasn't that they disliked eachother but rather they just didn't click and perfered to not spend time with eachother if it was possible. If not they would be respectful, as much as those two are on a normal basis, and put up with it. So I was stuck in the middle, I could only do something with one of them at the time. This wasn't really hard since one of my friends (we shall call one C and the other is B) C has some socializing issues and doesn't like to do much anyway. However a few months ago C decided he would like to start doing more things, and that he was ok with hanging out with B. B has no problem with this since he never really disliked C in the first place. So me and B and C started to hang out. It was very lovely, I got to have a social life, B was finally happy because he got to do stuff and C was just more happy in general.
Now with C's socializing problems comes C's fucked up thought process. One of his idiosyncrasies (yes I had to look up the spelling for that) is that when he falls in love he will no longer need friends or family, just that person, and that person will make him happy no matter what. Well see, this always fails him, mostly I think because he relies too much on the person. And I get to be the lucky person to pick up all the pieces, not that I mind it's kind of a born talent for me.
Now this is where my true rant begins. If I am the oen too always fix the problem, is it really fair to not tell me anything and put meafter everything else when you get in a relationship? Ok well I suppose if you are doing that to everyone else and your gf should come first, but is it fair to then expect me to know when you are having problems with this person? Is it fair for you to expect me to jump on the banwagoon and smooth out all the rough patches that come along? Is it fair to not longer hang out with me, and cancel plans with me because of this person? Hell no it is not! But I hold my tongue.
Till you be an ass to me.
If you are going to ask me what is up, (and mean it, not just start a conversation with "wats up?") then listen to me not tell me you dont care. If you don't care fine, but shut up and listen anyway since I do it for you all the time.
And don't think me being pissy isn't your fault, I kept my mouth shut so you don't know I am mad, but don't expect me to hold my tongue with you get snippy with me because she hasn't talked to you and I didn't know.
On another note,
I am suppost to take the Adobe certification tomorrow (for photoshop). However, I did not know this till today, around 5 pm.
The school set it up soi don't really have a choice.
But christ, couldn't they have given me a week to study or something?
I hope I don't fail and waste 150$. Not that I paid, they did so I suppose I shouldn't care.
But I do.
I wanna pass.
I hope I do.
I want to throw some random lyrics in here.. so I think I will.
Because some of these kind of sum up how I have been feeling about situations ive been in while I have no been blogging and others are just cool.
He tastes like you only sweeter- Thnks Fr Th Mmrs Fall Out Boy
I never said that I didn't need you
Put down your arms
And wrap them both right around me- Boulders New Found Glory
I woke up one morning to find myself wrapped in the things I swore I'd never touch.-Too Many Words Sick Puppies
Btw I decided to start posting in here more often. Specially since I am graduating on monday, I will have lots of free time since I am also jobless.
I need to talk about stuff since I can no longer be really mad or sad. I cant cry unless I am crying at movies, because there is no feleing behind it, cept for feeling sorry for the person. And I cant feel hungry anymore, weird hu?
So expect more.
I talk like people actually read this.
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