conspiracy

So now I tend to think the friend who really likes me, is working with his mother to keep me around. Cause he started with me the other day and I let something slip (he tends to give off these "god I wanna kiss you" vibes and gets this look so I said "god you are obvious" he asked me what and I said nevermind!! but I suppose he heard me.) So a few days later he decided to bring it up in a coversation, he was having a very b ad day that day (the nect day he was going to attend a friends funeral, its sad when young people die. I shall throw this out cause I feel like it RIP Ryan, he was 24 ((I think)) and died in a motorcycle accident.) So I told him he didnt want to start with me cause I didnt know what I would say (probably something along the lines of, since you cant have me as just a friend I cant have you as anything) ((which I really dont want to say.. I am avoiding the situation as long as I can..)) but I did tell him how I was being beaten down by the stress of the 2 situations (not what those 2 were though, he is smart enough to figure out it had to do with my only 2 friends) and not much else.
So here is where his mom comes in, cause see he really doesnt like his mom a whole hell of a lot, and yet just recently I have been intived to breakfast with him and her (my mother was invited along to as an afterthought) and to a cookout with his family and some friends. And! here is the icing on the cake, the other day I sad sometihng about not eating hotdogs or hamburgers and he told his mom so she ran out to get chicken for the cookout so I would have something to eat. He doesnt like talking to his mom, period, why would he tell her that? maybe so I would have food, I suppose, but it wasnt a fact I was coming and its not like I would starve if they didnt have any.
I dunno its just weird to me.
I think he figured out I might have ot be rid of him soon
so he is doing his best to keep me around.
Too bad I know what he is doing, and it mighto nly being making the situation worse.
Also he took a picture awhile back of the two of us with his phone, he was laying on my back and our faces were pretty much pressed together, so besides me looking like crap in the photo it looked like we were a couple or something. So I was joking (at first) and said, what are you gonna do with that make it the wall? so he did. and I got pissy, cause I dont want people seeing that and assuming we are together (enough people do that when they see us hanging, my guy friends are like 75% of the reason I am still single no doubt)so I tried to delete it. But he wouldnt let me. Then he sent it to my phone to piss me off. And so finally yesterday, with the help of my violent sister, I got him to delete it. and he was all emo about it!
I mean seriously! No friend would be emo about another friend making you delete a shit photo and not have them as your fucking wallpaper. Course I almost felt bad, and if he was just a friend I would have given him a kiss on the cheek to make up for it, but like fuck I am doing that in this situation.
BTW he just made the only other photo he had of me as his wallpaper, its basically a boob shot cause you cant see my face since I covered it with my arm, so all it really is is my boobs and stomach.
fablous. Does he not get that every person who looks at he phone is gonna assume I am his gf? dumbass -_- (thats the only reason my sister helped me to delete the other picture, cause it looked like we were together and she knows I hate that, and is on my side.)

It would be much easier if he was gay. (I am serious all the situations wouldnt mean anything then.)

And my other friend went on a vacation of sorts last week. So after about a week I finally hear from him. And all he says is "almost all the stuff for the site is done. You need to fix the nav bar and thats it." and "is the same srtup as last time fine with you?"

I wonder if he is trying to pull away from me? Maybe he knows I will kick his ass when I "find out" he smokes. (I say "find out" since I already know, but he doesnt know I know) Or maybe he reads this blog and figured out I know he is gonna fall on his face again and it hurts me to see him fucking his life up.
Either way I think he is trying to distance himself from me. And I kinda wanna fight it so I am not alone, but I would rather him pull away from me then me have to pull away from him.(cause in my mind that means it will hurt him less, which is a good thing in my opinion.)