Dead in the water

Ever have a situation that has no good resolution?
Ever wish you could get an unbiasted opinion but you dont know anybody that could give it to you?

Lemme just warn ya kids, dont get so deep into a relationship that you cant survive without the person. And I dont mean like dramatic 'oh god I couldnt suuurvive!'
I mean couldnt do anything but sit on your bed wishing you had money for food and cable and your own transportation because it makes life a whole lot more complicated.

Clearly it can not be healthy to have like 2 friends

Threadless/Cake fans

Threadless meets cakes.
I am in heaven
Go Here

Favs:
She Doesnt Know
Kyoto
The Apple
Long Journey
Blue Sky
Catburger!


Where are the people who actually own the shirt? Alot of people have printouts of the shirts in the background of the cake, but where is the shirt itself? I own so many threadless shirts... In fact I am wearing one now! XP

More-ness

Its alreayd half way through the year and I am not even close to my New Years Resolution.



Turned in my 2 weeks at the doctors office.
Working at Staples now, in the copy and print center.
I like it more.


I want a vacation though, havent had one in some time.

wow

this poor thing is really unloved.
I know I am not on here much anymore.
I am not on many sites anymore, I check my messages on myspace deviantart and facebook then I just browse around those or watch tv.

My life doesnt seem to be going anywhere right now.
I wake up, watch tv, check my messages, go to work, come home, check my messages, watch tv, eat dinner, and wait for my boyfriend to get back from work. Then I listen to him play guitar or watch tv and make kissy face then I go to bed.
Then it starts over.
It varies a little sometimes but not really.

I will have car insurance again soon. So I can finally get my licence and get a car.

Maybe then I wont feel like a lazy bum thats going no where.
Cause then I can move out (once I get the money, which means getting a full time job because this one sucks and is fucking me over) and then I can try to get into college.
Then I will be in debt and broke and super busy with work and school.

But atleast I wont feel like my life is on hold.







I need a job that has to do more with computers, I had to type something up the other day, and actually felt like I was somewhere I belong. Wtf is that?














Other Sites
Deviantart I mostly post pictures and some clay charms
Myspace -----> Always accept friend requests (unless from bands, I only add if they are good.) dont post much, but when I do its usually something funny and I always answer messages.
Facebook -----> I poke people alot, and mess with some of the applications I have on there. But I have few friends so I dont do much with it.

superfluous

So this actually comes from a situation a person I have come to adore (an artist on da) ran into. I have kept up with this situation from the beginning.
Ironically enough, even if it has nothing to do with my life it still has to do with boys. I should just chage the name of this blog to "boy make me rant" or some shit like that.
The situation cut very short.
She sort of likes a guy. She was trying to feel out the situation and figure out if the guy liked her back and maybe ask him out for coffee, some thing casual just to get the feel of things. The boy is cute, and funny and flirts with her. He complains that all the girls at school arent single and how much that sucks.
Well she found out his has a gf today, and not because she told him, but because she read it online.

Why is it that men feel the need to not mention things like girlfriends when they are flirting with a girl, and when its obvious the girl likes him back?
I just wanna punch the guy.

And why is it something as basic and incomplete as simple light lust for a guy can turn you into tears or make you frustrated beyond belief?
I mean when I see a cute guy somewhere, and I, being the sort of person who wont go talk to you, start screaming in my head that he is fucking hott and should most definatly come talk to me, and he doesnt, I get very sad and/or frustrated?
I mean there is nothing you can do about it if the boy doesnt talk to you or choose to flirt with you even though he has a girlfriend. But knowing that, why cant girls have a thick skin to this sort of thing? Or fuck a thick skin, why cant we just keep it from not happening?



edit: Ok so it turns out the guy is single, but it still happens with other guys a lot.

break

shouldn't I be use to him doing stupid stuff that hurts me? He has been in my life for years now, and does what he wants cause no one else matters. And yet I feel nauseous.

grow up

how craptastic does your life have to be when you wish someone would send you a message on one of the many networking sites you are on saying you are cute and they wanna get to know you?
Why is it I always bitch about this sort of thing on here?
It must be because having no one I might like me, is one thing I cant even try to control. Damn my luck.
Why cant my problems be easy fixers?