gators

so I was joking around with a friend.
I want to go to this park nearby. It has lots of gators. It wouldnt be florida if a lake didnt have them..
And I was saying we should get a bunch of us to go. More people for me to throw to the gators if I am attacked.
To make a long story short, I said I would feed him second out of 3. In the end my friend said this. (course with names that I removed)
"Lets think sensably 4 a sec. You would throw him first cause that would be the nicest thing you could do for him. You would throw your sister cause she is a pain in your ass and my nuts. Then her cause people like her get chewed up and spit out so you would be helping her and you cant throw me because I have a lot of potential, I have to record my ep, break peoples hearts, let people down, drive you crazy plus I am your ride home. I wouldnt throw you in cause its a long ride and I need someoe else for the allibi and so do you.." so on so forth.
Excuse me but doesnt that sound a bit rude and selfish? If you are honestly thinking out who you will throw to a gator first this way, I dont think I want to be around you. Not to mention I think its bullshit to talk about her like that. She is was too fucking nice. And even if he might want to die, it doenst mean you should say things like that.

Then to top it all off he sas "do you know how much as I would get being a gator attack survivor. Get a bite or scratch XD"
I pride myself on not having selfish or rude and asshole friends.
That sounds pretty selfish and crude to me.
Get a number from a girl in a fast food joint (while eating lunch with your mother) and have 2 girls hint they might want to date you and your head blows up this much?
Get the fuck over your self.
Its pissing me off.

hrm

This is sort of a waste.
But where the hell are all the single cute guys/girls in this area?
Are they hiding from me?
I bet they are.
And where are all the cool rcoker kids who like jrock and dotn care what other people think and share shit in common with me?
I would like some more friends. And a bf/gf.
Wouldnt that be nice



Also, I think myspace should have a "see the last 5 people who viewed your profile page" thing.
I wanna see if anyone is actually looking at my page.
And what type of people.
and hunt down any of the cool people and yell at them for not adding me. just kidding. sort of.


(ps: I came up with something a bit more useful.
the only reason I really bitch about being single on here, is because that and my lack of friends and my lack of going anywhere in my life currently, are the only problems I have in my life. And I can deal with the lack of going anywhere problem without bitching. And I tend to tie the friend thing in with the being single thing.)(pps: rememeber some amoutn of posts back I said I switched my birthday wish to "someone to love me who I can love back" its gotten way more complicated now..)(ppps:btw I got a job, I do medical records)

alone

Why is it something as simple as finding someone to enjoy spending time with is so hard for me?
I mean I look around and so many people are in relationships.
People who dont deserve to be in love.
And people who cant handle relationships.

And yet here I am, waiting for anyone to come up and say something.
But I am invisible.

I cant even find people to just be friends with let alone someone to cherish time with and snuggle and love on.

I just dont get it.
And I want to so bad, so I can fix it.
I am tired of being alone.

(wow thats twice in a row I have posted about this. But I dont know what I can do. If no one comes around how can I find someone?)