The wisdom that comes spilling out?

Havnt posted in some time. Ive becoem lazy, it happens I suppose, following large amounts of drama and spring break.

I finally figured out why im hurt so often, without the help of a therpist no less. Its ironic that I figured this out by getting my heart broken. I always racked up me getting hurt on account of me being so nice and caring. But that is not the case, no my friends Iget hurt because I put myself in the position to be. True, I dont do it the first time I am hurt, but once im hurt once I forgive people to easily, so I put myself back into the same position knowing I will be hurt so I can dislike the person more, thinking if I get hurt enough I will never forgive them. Maybe you do it to?

Ive decided upon this news I need to just seperate myself from my "friends" now, because I need to remove myself from a situation I am already getting hurt in before I keep getting myself hurt.

First to go was keith, but I didnt plan that. Oh no that was just something that happened without me wanting it to.
Second is Cara, and truth is she would have been last if never, if she hadnt broke my trust. But she did, she told everyone about me iming luis and telling him I wished he would come back and still hurt but wish he would, basically, die because of how mean he is. Worst part was she didnt even tell the people she told the correct thing, so now they have a misconstruded view on it and I dont want to tell them the truth because I dont want them to know. So she was the first to be removed from my life.



I have decided tho I need a new set of friends, ones who dont have drama and are more mature but still funny and I need friends who are smart and can hold a real, and sometimes deep, conversation without doing anything stupid for atleast an hour. but I still need people who are caring and funny and odd. Do they have those kind of people or am I destined to be alone?



Edit- I just realized you guys dont know, Luis cheated on me with another girl. I found out by looking at the other girl's myspace... sad right? Well I am heart broken but -shurg- what can you do.