I want to run away.
Not really run.
I want to leave for a month or something like it.
I want to know people miss me.
But I am pretty sure the people I wish would miss me wouldnt. Or dont now for that matter.
I had a random nose bleed today.
First time ever for me.
I wonder if it might be something serious. I dont think so, it prob. is just an added bonus of this cold thing I have.
Is it wrong to almost want it to be something serious? I wouldnt tell anyone if it was. I wouldnt let them worry over me. I dont want them to.
It isnt something serious though.
Do I sound like a nutcase? It seems I only write things in this when I am in a weird mental state.
I wonder, if someone could listen to all my thoughts, how long it might take them to lock me up.
I feel guilty being the way I am because of the situations I have dealt with. So many people have it way worse, so why am I like this? Compared to some of the horrors in this world, my life is a peice of cake minus the icing. But its still cake right?
How can you deal with problems if you dont know the problem in the first place?
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